Changes

So, we are certainly going through changes in our family. We are slowly adapting to being a 1 dog family. It is clear that I am struggling the hardest. Pete has been my rock through this whole process. Ellis, thankfully was not affected by it so much. He and Emma have a special bond that did not exist between he and Allie. Allie was not able to play with him like Emma is. Ellis has been extremely tender. I do my best to hide my tears and saddness. But once in awhile he sees and he tells me it is ok. The last time he and I spoke of Allie being gone. He told me that Allie was old and she is in a place where there are lots of people taking pictures of her. This was so sweet. Kristen made a point, that this would make sense. Because as a family we really like to take pictures of the people we love. It is adoration for each other. The mourning process is so overwhelming. This is nothing like I expected or thought it could be. It can be debilitating at times and sometimes it is just enough to get through the day without crying.

Emma seems to be holding up well. I see glimpses of her looking lost. But overall I think that she is enjoying all the extra attention, walks and car rides.